~always start with I'M WRONG and ended with I LOVE YOU~
forgive me if I'M WRONG..
there's so many things happened around me n its TOTALLY make me SICK!i tot dat i'm suffering from such a worst situation ever n a bunch of SICK ppl,but actually i've learn so much.
i'm too tired 2 keep asking myself why we do this n that? why can't we be honest n talk things over if things are going wrong in a relationship n put things right, instead of hurting each other?i'm too tired 2 ask for a chance n i'm tired thinking bout every little minutes dat we had spend together.n i'm tired to BERLAKON in my own DRAMA.
now i realize how dangerous the misunderstanding n unproper words could be.for an example, when we says SORRY,WE ARE CLOSED some ppl will think its a statement about something is close or stop operating.but actually maybe it means some ppl dat was closed 2 each other,n was a very good friends.see?so i better watch my words from now.
yes,I'M SORRY, I'M WRONG.for every words dat had been spoken n everythings dat had been done.dunno where 2 start.its a very beautiful morning n i can hear birds singing outside.as i promised 2 myself dat i will b much better today, i've set my mind 2 become more positive person,START FROM TODAY.
studies have proven dat ppl who r prone 2 negative thinking r more likely 2 suffer from clinical depression, n even mental illnesses.4 an example,me,is keep thinking dat every post n every words in their page is 4 me.kiddy me!haha.so dat i remove them from my news page.God, how stupid i am.i can't even control myself from getting angry n i'm suffering from my own negative thinking.now i realise wat they're talking about is not totally about wat had happened,but maybe about me myself.be positive.
who bugs me, let them be.they’re hard to like, never mind.maybe life would be so much better if they were gone.coz when they r gone, another more shows up.it’s always someone.
i do believe dat acceptance is one important step in healing from any bad condition.so dat i'll accept wat ever they think about me n wat ever words they want me 2 know,even it will breaks my heart into two.
n i love this:
I don’t miss them, I miss who I thought they was.
guys,it is my great accomplishment to realize dat i juz loved a concept, a picture i've had in my minds, rather than da person itself. it teach me about detachment, da benefit 2 forgive and let go, 2 live life 2 da fullest wit all its dark sides, acceptance, mental control n da existence of false pictures.
last nite i've read one book~ 'Don't Be Sad.' it says dat life is not a bed of roses or sun shines everyday.most of us have our own sad days.we become sad for many reasons.demi Allah saya sedang mengalami kelukaan jiwa yg maha dasyat.so many things around me.but after read dis book,i'm thinking more bout myself n all my mistake.n i do believe in faith.i will try 2 have a deeper understanding of life so dat i can minimize the impacts of bad or sad days in my life.
Let me qoute this famous words of the Sufi:
"Allah s.w.t puts turbulence in our heart so that our nearness to Him remains forever."
feuuww!now i feel much better.i cant forget how weak i am,crying infront of my dad n make him worry.he used 2 kiss my forehead n said "biar satu dunia tggalkn kita,tp kalau kita yakin kita betul,Allah ada dgn kita."
Ayah,u r my strength when i was weak.thank u so much.
another more quotes:
appreciate people,nothing give more joys than appreciation.
so i think i have 2 say dis 2 those ppl around me who have make my day much better.
~syukri,no matter wat,i know dat u'll stand behind me.our friendship make me stronger.thanx 2 trust me n accept me 4 who i am.u r the best!
~fariha,as long as our friendship remains,i want u to know dat u r such a good friend.u always know the truth n no matter what,u r always my friend.
~hizami,thanx 4 always b with me,erase my doubt n brightier my day.i never know dat u r also such a good friend.thanx 4 everythings n 4 every moment dat u spend 4 me.n thanx 4 not leaving me in such of my worst condition.i almost lost,but thank God u've found me there n lead me again.thanx..
~for someone dat i miss so much.even u r not wit me anymore,but trust me,deep in my heart i always remember wat u've said n done.every moment wit u is da best moment dat i ever had.i'm sorry 2 hurt u n i'm sorry 4 everything.n thanx 4 this:
"kdg2 Allah tutup sinar mentari dgn mendatangkn awan gelap dan hujan.kita mengeluh.tp rupa-rupanya selepas itu Allah kurniakan kita mentari cerah berhias pelangi utk kita hayati keindahannya."
got to go.there's a lot of works 2 do.hope u guys can pray 4 me n wish 4 my happiness.i promise my self 2 be a better person n 2 live my life happily.hope everythings will be ok coz in all things,it is better 2 hope than a despair,rite?may God bless u always.Mmmmmuuuaaaahhhh!!! (o.~)
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