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You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts.

Yeah, dan ini quote saye sepanjang zaman : what goes around comes around. What u give u get back. Ding! As usual, I should start writing with I’m sorry. I train myself 2 become more humble n guess what? It works all the time! I think deeply before I’m start saying something coz I don’t wanna say sorry after I break others heart. I don’t wanna hurt people dat might love me in a way I couldn’t imagine. I don’t wanna let them sad or mad with any kind of words of mine. I love everyone around me. I love those who hate me. And I’d love to forgive everyone dat makes any mistake to me. Same goes to u ya?

Owh, me juz come back from KL. Attending my cousin punya majlis tunang. Lama gila xjumpa saudara mara sebelah ayah,coz most of them live in KL n Kelantan. Cuma kami je yg jauh di Johor Bahru. Kepenatan! Well, although this is not the correct time or suitable time 4 me to blogging but these itchy fingers juz had something 2 type. Sometimes there r so many thoughts in my mind but I juz don’t have the mood or time 2 blog aka PEMALAS. Haha.

Malam ini hening, as I can hear the sound of cengkerik outside(memekak), few things keep running over my head. I feel sad, but I juz don’t know how 2 share it wit anyone. I’m so afraid 2 let anyone knows my feeling inside. Ya, saye EGO. I found that its hard 4 me 2 share any kind of my thinking or feeling.

3.45 am. For the whole night I’m trying 2 think of a logical explanation that could explain what I had just feel. The fact is I feel so lonely. I don’t even have a friend 2 chat wit me pagi2 buta (mana ada org nak jadi burung hantu mcm saye?haha).

Sebenarnya saye sedang mengingati memori masa lalu. Biasa la dah nak habis tahun 2010, kenangan sepanjang tahun ni saye mawu lipat n simpan kemas2 dlm kotak kenangan. Well, actually I just love living in the past as I used 2 compare things I used 2 have in the past but I don’t have it NOW. It’s OK coz there’s also many things I had now but not in the past.

Memories.. Memories.. And memories.. 2009 and 2010. I had these 2 meaningful years that I hardly get over it. I don’t know why but this 2 years actually changed me a lot. Experience that I can never forget. UTM Skudai, a place where I learn how 2 love. How 2 cry and laugh. And where my ego easily develop. Where I make everyone my family. Sometimes I make some people my enemy. Where I get annoyed over some stupid and silly things. Where I learn 2 be expressive. Where I realise how weak am I. Where I hardly learn how 2 make decisions. Where I’m torn between love and hatred and friendships. Where I learn how friendships grows. So I can say that everything is perfectly PERFECT.

apa itu UTM?

Take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. 

And also, yes. Nothing in this world belong 2 us. But believe me, God actually took some of the things we used 2 have, but He actually gave us some other forms of gifts 2 replace what he took. So we have 2 learn how 2 give and take. Beautiful huh? So just wondering, r u the gifted one? *wink2* (o.~)